Things have been a roller coaster over the past few months. Luckily my health has been getting better since I took the time off. I’ve been sending out e-mails and making phone calls to get things straight.
The health challenge seems to get worse when I’m hyper focused and very active, and it slows down when I slow down. So during this time off I need to learn how to develop a balanced life style. Everything from eating more fruits and veggies, and getting more exercise. Staying on a better sleep schedule is vital as well.
Exercise has never been my forte, and I’ve never been good at being consistent with it. The chronic fatigue can make it a little difficult to be fully active like I want to be. However, I need to at least try to start that up again. 😉
Self-care is extremely important during this time period. When I started the internship, I jumped in head first. It was going good until the middle of the semester. I wasn’t getting much sleep, kept getting stressed and anxious, worried about external validation, and none of that was good. I need to work on communication skills, and solving problems head on.
This time I need to be prepared and ready to come in strong and balanced! Being able to self-validate will be necessary so I can thrive. Anyone that’s dealing with a health challenge or any type of crisis in life, stay optimistic and make sure to surround yourself with positive people. Be well everyone! ❤
The countdown is almost over, and I’ll be going to the conference that’s based on finding a cure of my rare illness. It’ll be very cool and exiting to meet people who have overcome obstacles, and talk to doctors who are doing research about the illness. I have finally gotten to a place where I don’t feel like I’m alone or depressed. Creativity has been a driving force to keep my mind from going to that dark place. I’ve been feeling more at peace and being able to express myself without being too critical. As long as I am happy that’s what matters. Looking forward to meeting my mentor, and finding out new options, and how she is coping with the illness. We have been e-mailing each other back and forth and I’m psyched to meet her.
Depression is a lie!! and I no longer Allow myself to go that place of nothingness and back down to that pit. I remind myself that being weird can make a difference. Speaking properly is okay, and standing up for myself is not a sign of weakness. It took me a long time to get to this point of realization. Thank goodness for cognitive therapy and I’m finally applying what I’ve learned.
In conclusion, I need to apply it to all areas of my life including work, my spiritual, and mental health. It is hard for me to stay happy for a long period of time. Creativity is saving me I have been writing a lot more putting more time into my blogs, and even painting. So if I can keep creating, and writing to fill the empty space then the depression will continue to decrease. Find something you love and keep going!