The New Year can bring new beginnings, and it can be a great thing. However, it can bring lots of challenges and revelations. This is what I have gone through within a year’s time. It was the beginning of 2015! I found out I made an A’s in my classes including the math course. It was learning support, and it was something I was struggling with for years and years. I was dealing with health challenges, and had to get several procedures done. So, in the beginning of January 2015 I was diagnosed with a rare illness called PSC. (Primary sclerosing cholangitis ) There is no cure and of course I was devastated. I was just beginning my internship around the time I was diagnosed and trying to get used to the symptoms. So I had to take time off and get several procedures done. Looking back at it now it was so difficult and unreal it was like one more challenge to hold me back. My mother and sister were huge supporters during the time of my rough diagnosis. Flash forward to the fall of 2015, I started my internship it was a challenge, the fatigue is still an issue. During the internship, I got a lot of grief because of the amount of days I missed. Got talked about a lot, and I know now that not everyone cares about your feelings. As a late bloomer, and introvert, that did hurt me, but I realize that I have to be an adult. Things were starting to turn around when I worked hard, until I compromised my health to impress them. I ended up leaving in an ambulance I work, and missed a week. Came back I got mixed reactions. What I realized is that people can be ignorant to things that they don’t understand. Here are the lessons I’ve learned over the course of this year:
- NEVER EVER COMPRISE MY WELL BEING FOR ANYONE
- DON’T BE HARD ON MYSELF WHEN I’M NOT FEELING MY BEST (TOMORROW’S ANOTHER DAY)
- EVERYONE HAS A DIFFERENT PATH
- THE ONLY PERSON THAT I SHOULD IMPRESS IS MYSELF
- ALWAYS BE POSITIVE DON’T RELY ON OTHERS FOR HAPPINESS
- FOLLOW YOUR DREAM NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES
- DON’T TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY
- WORK ON COMMUNICATION SKILLS (PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE)
This is what I have learned, and as 2015 comes into a close I have no resolutions. Why? You never know what new challenges will come into your life. I have no regrets, and I have learned a lot about myself. I still need to work on validating myself and not looking externally because it takes too much energy to care about what others think about me. Life is about learning and fixing things that aren’t working. Here’s to 2016, more lessons, better understanding, and finding balance. Here are some photos of my favorite things I did this year.
Life will always have the good and the bad, but in the end it’s about how you handle them.